Last night the boys were doing an experiment where you were supposed to close your eyes while the other person slowly brings something towards your forehead. When Tai wanted to try in on me I said no, despite him trying me to do it several times. At last he said I had trust issues. It doesn’t matter than he was joking when he said it. Truth is that after thinking about it - he’s right.

I do have some trust issues. I always prefer to doubt something first and trust later. I find things hard to believe unless there’s something I think is proof enough. I accept that there isn’t explanation to some things but for the most of it I need solid proof.

This rigidity makes me wonder if I am doing the right thing. It made me question my father’s suggestion to sending my brother to another college. Why? Because, I have too much evidence to prove that it won’t be a good place for my brother. Do I intend to give the place the benefit of doubt? Probably no,t because again I need proof to prove that my instinct about the place not being for Sam is wrong. 

I know this might be something important for me to work on. Still I prefer to be proved wrong rather than have regrets. Maybe I’m wrong and maybe I’m playing safe, but until I have proof otherwise, I’ll stick to this.